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April 24, 2006
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Am i doing the right thing?
A sense of guilt prink my heart.
I thought i'd feel better,
I thought the missing parts in the parcel could be found to make it a complete heart again.
I realised i was wrong.
I dint feel better, nt the least.
Going round a circle, but ended up hurting myself.
Dumb.
It was pouring so heavily, that the views of the trees and buildings became so vivid in sight
The rain fell on me, i was drenched.
I saw people walking in quick steps with umbrella,
I saw people running,
I saw people seeking shelter.
But i wasnt,
I was walking slowly in the rain.
17 years. I realise i dont even understand myself. |
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The 1st actual day in Tp todae! Lecture starts at 9am to 1pm, yay.. This week there is no tutorial so school ends early. x)
I nv knew that the whole bunch of us can get into clicks so fast, its merely 3 days and our class became so united.They even tot of doin a class Tee but its onli gonna last a semester?
Know a lot of ppl todae,in fact they are all very nice and easy ppl to click with. i love goin to sch!
Its mellisa's bday todae, we sang her a bdae song and present to her the bdae gift that we chip in together..
Happy Bdae girl..
The whole bunch of us went to catch a movie at Tampines mall after lecture.. The choices were very limited as we wanted a timing that is close to 2pm, so we watched Dark Night.. Gosh.. it was a waste of money, a horror show that is so freaking lame.
Seems scary yea? But dont get deceived by the picture.. =X A ghost show that consists of 3 movies, thailand, hk and japan. No story line, just the ghost comin ard and scaring ppl.
I wanna watch eight below, dying to see it.. but it started quite late so we dint put it into consideration.. anybody wanna go watch? Go and see the trailer, u will be deeply attracted.
Back at home.. i've got a new pet! A rabbit,1 mth old around the size of my palm, totally black in color. I dint have the intention to buy it, my grandpa just bought it all of a sudden.
It cost 45 bucks, came from Australia plus all the cage and food was ard 100+ bucks.Its adorable, its cute, its damn active *hard to carry* duh.. When u look nearer, it looks likes a black pig, with its nose white. x)
I was rather shocked when i get home of a sudden to see a rabbit at home, it was the hamster trend last time and now the rabbit trend has came? Seeing how the way my normally hot-tempered grandpa stroke and play with the rabbit, i was bewildered..
Introduing u to Mr blacky'S FEET..
Its face x)
Tts all peeps.. any comments abt my rabbit do leave a tag yea? x) |
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April 18, 2006
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Day 2 Orientation
Another early day, woke up at 6am for the orientation on the 2nd day. *Yawn* Drag my feet to go as i cant bear to leave my bed. Gosh..
BUT the 2nd day orientation turns out to be great! Again i meet doreen at wdls to go tgt, but when we reached temasek poly, we gotta be separated. I only know i have to go cls T21, completely no idea where it is and the 2 friends that i exchanged contact no. with the day b4 were not here todae.
So here i was alone again, a figure in such a big and unfamiliar place, unaware of where to go, where to find, people that i know were not here todae. Gosh.. But suprisly, i wasnt afraid this time, my faith has won over my fear. If it was the past me, i probably would have freaked out.
I wanted to ask the people around me, but i realised they are all freshies! And i guess i was too lazy to go into the office, so i just by faith went to the business school and walk around ,yself. After searching a while, i finally found T21. "Get prepare to meet new ppl again" the 1st thing i tot of b4 i step into the classroom.
I guess being a member of chc for ard 2+ years, u will possess very sociable skills as u always need to meet new ppl. So again, the orientation was just like another round of it.. Den i realise our no. of intake was 100, and the course manager said more dan 600 ppl r snatching places in this course as their 1st choice. And she wents on and on... Attachment is at sentosa, the tourism academy, but there would always be trips to diff countries. (selected ppl) like Las Vegas. wow..
Until around 12plus, we were brought to the sports complex. The business school was the 1st wan tp cum in, den design school, IT.. The orientation was so happening in the sports complex! It was like sports day.. With business sch wearing yellow, IT blue and goes on..
So we were having competition btw all the schools and each school has their own participants in the particular events. SO THE CHEERS WENT ON.. until voice breaks. Honestly speaking, i think business school has the loudest and best cheers. *cheers*
Tracks of the sports complex that participants are to be
The sits behind are where all the schools are to be sitted. *imagine it is packed*
Cheers and cheers and CHEERS. Excitment were in the air, just like back in secondary school when u're cheering for ur clsmates. Overall we Gt 2nd for the 1st round of events. Alright, next competition was the dragon boat! SOunds excited yea.. We walked a 3mins walk to the reservoir behind TP, kayats were everywhere.. By den it was alreadi ard 4 plus, which the orientaion starts at 8.30am.
Guess everybody were worn out by the previous cheers, hence we were all stagnent where the student leaders lead us in cheers for the dragonboat participants in business scg. The intial high spirits were gone, it den started raining.. So my new friends and I left earlier.. But all in all i still enjoy the orientation todae! I love Tp.. thou its far.. x) |
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Day 1 orientation
20th of April marks the 1st day of my tertiary student in Temasek Poly. Orientation was on todae, so early in the morning i meet doreen at wdls interchange -6.50am. *Yawn*
After 50mins of bus 168 and 15mins of bus 23, we were finally at Temasek Poly!
Tp at nite
So we headed to Temasek Convention Centre where all the business school ppl gather tgt.. I was with doreen until we were separated during the stairs as different courses need to sit separately. Oh my gosh.. I wasnt prepared for this.. I tot all business school ppl can sit tgt..
So there i was, alone. Walking to my course, Leisure & resort mangement. So we were supposed to sit down and i found a sit, all unfamiliar faces.. Thank God i'm used to meeting new ppl, so Intro again.. My name is: "..." *shake hand* The facililators from the student union grp are damn high.. High spirit i mean. They makes the whole atmopshere so excited, with gr8 leadership skills.
From 8.30 to ard 1pm, there were all sorts of programme at the convention centre. Cheers, Singing, dance and performances. I love business school, it rawks! =P All gathered together to prepare for the competition with all the other schools llike Design, Engineering... Challenge of Cheers, BEst school spirit, water boat bla bla.. i couldnt rem all. Buth the thing that excited me is my course has attachment in Sentosa too tgt with HTM course. =D
I think the most interesting part was learning to do sign language when singin the Tp song. I love that. There was a part when i really doze off... Nt used to waking up so early. Well so after the cheers snd stuff, we were brought to the Sports complex .
Tp swimming comlex..
Rock wall at sports complex.
So here we were, at the sports complex- having our lunch. I was in class h103, get to know some new friends like ariel, christabel.. The rest i couldnt really rem.. *err* Den i found out that ariel are in the same church as me! what a small world, a nice person that is easily click with.
Forgotten to talk abt the TP library, marvellous.. 11th storey and its simply too gorgeous.
A view of the 11th storey library outside
Inside
Back to the orientation, so after splited as diff classes in the sports complex, which i think my class has only abt 20 ppl or lesser. Games again.. I dun understand why the facillator makes the interaction like matchmaking.. Duh.. Purposely tell Guys and girls to pair up and interact and the guys to take the lunch box to them and sit tgt with them to talk.
So the great escape come. *err* Christabal was the 1st wan to say she wanted to leave.. so ariel and me followed too. And we left at ard 2pm, which the whole orientation supposed to end at 5plus. And We left after telling our facilator. They dint really pursue the reason too..
Another orientation on tmr, a very xiong wan. SPORTS and CHALLENGE.oh man.. nt really in the condition to do all these stuffs.. Headache and flu. HAiz.. |
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I'm tired & lethargic of trying... physically, emotionally, spiritually.
But theres a still small voice, telling mi Never Give up, Never Give up.. Keep walking, Keep walking..
These words really encouraged me.
When you
believe u're crushed, u are.
defy not the odds, you lose.
claim not the victory, u fail.
settle for one goal, u grow stangnant.
But when you
learn from the struggles, u resolve.
ignore the put downs, u grow.
choose success, u soar.
believe in urself, u gain confidence.
accept Christ, u gain strength.
toil unceasingly, u achieve.
press on, u r enriched,
fall & start over, u win.
The storm is here, i want to sing. I dun wanna sink.
Can i really be Singing in the storm?
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April 14, 2006
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New menu is out todae, i dint even noe man.. All along i tot it was next thursday, until i went work todae in the mornin seeing andrick and wanyue already there displaying the new menus.I was totally stunned, i dint prepare anything! The last time i see the notes about the new menu is when adrick brief us abt it.
New menus meaning:
New cashier
New Order Chit
New short form
New knowlege
New comments
New complaints
I was totally unprepared, even the cashier format was changed only this morning.. Intially b4 the new menus were launched out, i tot i would freak out, learn really slow, and adapt slowly.
I was surprised at myself. I dint freak out, and i adpat real quick. Everything seems so normal, so easy.. The cashier part thou many new dishes were out and the groupings of the dishes in the cashier were totally different from the past, I adpated it within 1h.
Things seem nothing much different from the past. But derrick keep tellin mi that he cant adapt.. And many a times, his face looks so stress. Hes gonna have a lot of things to adapt to i guess, when he isnt familiar with the new workin place, a new menu just suddenly pop out. Poor thing..
I guess when one has gone thru so much, they adapt things fast too? Because even if they cant, they just have to.
Finally saw rudy and able to work with him todae. He came in his sch U wif peggy, finds it kinda wierd that they r cls mates, but its always gd that u have somebody u know to be in the same class with.. Its like been so long since i last saw him, missed his tango. x)
School orientation is coming soon, new adaption again. I'm look forwarding to it, so i wont spend so much time in freaking Ramen Ten anymore!
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April 12, 2006
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Liars, Hypocrites.
Key essence in humans?
God bring mi to a vision that i can see far,
no longer twirling around in a circle, going back to where i started again.
The race seems never-ending, i'm running, i'm panting, i'm tired.
Am i gonna see the finishing line soon?
How i wish i'd a simpler mind, perhaps when u cant detect so much things, when the cruel ans is unknown, u'll be much happier.
I sensed it, i knew it. But i chose to keep in silence.
My heart and mind often they clashes together.
which one should i listen to?
Perhaps the Holy spirit.
I've train so hard, run so far, theres no way i gonna turn back.
Perhaps i should run a lil more.
Perhaps i should trust a lil more.
Perhaps i should be more firm.
Perhaps..........
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April 11, 2006
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Perhaps in life, u just have to go thru that hardship, tt pain to understand. Its only that certain point, tt certain trial to grow.
I'm sick of shallow people, who only see the surface of things. Does good friends need to have the same background? i find it a pity if even the simplest understanding cant be found...
Had a long chat with Bro chee kiong, this call makes my head cracks again. Some things are hard to express it out, harder when face to face. I've been thinking a lot, humans are always like dis, when we do not know the answers we tend to guess. This mystery of nt knowing & leading to all sorts of misinterpretation can be reduced a lot if we can be just more accountable, more willingly to share.
I realise i dont share a lot about myself, i listen. But thru these years, i have changed a lot. I learn to be more accountable over my life. The past mi.. i still rem twice i bottled and bottled too much feelings inside until to the pt my heart was saturated with hatred, until something happens.
Until to the pt, i cant tolerate anymore and i cried infront of my dad, vomiting out all my feelings that was kept for years which in my whole life i nv did b4. By that time, things had gone very worst, and there seems to be no turning point.
Now, i'm learning to be more accountable...
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April 08, 2006
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Went to amk to take pay ysd cuz peggy dint pass down the message that thomas is comin at 11am! AMK IS SOOOO RELAX.
No andrick.
No peggy.
Small and compact.
Hair doesnt tie they also seem not to care at all. Onli ken watching, one that u can bullied can tease about. =X
Realise that back at fareast, it was so tense.. Every movement u do seem to be watched at, a wrong action = fired.
Mayb just mayb.. i want to quit Ramen ten. When school starts, i wonder can i reali cope with so much commitments.
Church
Cca
School
Work
Guitar
All these things in a week? Rather impossible..
Start to look at the positive side of life.. In fact, i reali have to. When so much negative influence is upon mi, its quite difficult to be.
Can i be a influence to others rather then to get influenced? I wish. This Easter is gonna be another challenge to me again. Right now, only melvin is coming. i'm still trying my best to get as much people as possible, many are still unconfirm..
Embracing Easter!
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April 07, 2006
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Wad shld i do? Sometimes i feel like throwing in the towel, dis race that i'm running... Nobody co-operates, nobody appreciates. I'm tired.
When i heard these words, the world seems to crash down. All that i've done seem to gone to the drain, here i am trying and trying.. And the response that i got hit directly right into my heart, making it smashed into a million pieces.
i'm so afraid to see those faces again, so familiar yet so distant.
God, since u called mi in, give me the authority and the anoiting.. I want to be a conquerer, not a loser.
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April 02, 2006
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I cant take it no more, i tried to hide, i tried to find. Fears creep in again, grabbing mi so tight i cant breathe anymore. Each time i tried to get up, when the glimpse of light was vivdly in my view, devil u pulled mi deep down to the bottom of the well.
And again i fall back right to the begining to where i started,until to the darkest pit ever. I'm climbing and climbing and keep on climbing thou many a times i failed, but i wont give up and wont give in.
Because God i know u are there. With mi
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Wads joy? Helping people, & blessing their lives.
Spent a meaninful day today, thou i was reali tired. From mornin 8 am until 7 plus todae..
Went to the dialect church in the evening after accompanying huishi & jessica to expo. I waited for huishi like 1h 45mins? Gt reali fustrated at 1st, but i take it as training my patience.. x)
Now i realise.. not onli the young children are cute, the elderly can be real cute too. =D Went to help out in the dialect church in the noon, dialect is for the elderly in case u're arent sure..
We were ushering the elderly, and went in reali fellowship to them. Some abandoned, some wheeled-chair.
But they came here for a purpose- to seek God.
The 1st ah ma i met, 85 yrs old. White hair all over, wrinked face. But something that makes mi so amazed, she is so full of the joy of the Lord. This spirit, young ppl might not even have..
Our job is to help them in the lift, makin sure they're well & safe & taking them to the washroom. They were so friendly! u can see them smiling all the time, and these smiles make me forget the fatigue that is in mi.
A meaninful day spent todae. =D
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