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May 30, 2006
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6 modules= 6 projects
Mid sem test
Tutorial
nt forgetting 1h + of travelling everyday..
i'm learning to adapt,
oh ya i realise i have become rather independent.
These few days i fly to mac alone to study at night.
Because simply, being at home is so distracting.
Seriously i dont have much confidence in the upcoming tests.
So much confusion..
An evidence of mugging at mac..
* the most hatred module eva.. its taking my life.
There was a part where i was taking my rest,
and i was really bored.
and i spotted a indian kid!
so i started playing with him.
By sticking out my tongue. duh..
and he plays back with me!
after zoomin in so much that the pic becomes so blur..
just because i dun wanna get caught by his mom for secretly taking pic of him.
Still remember once, the same place, the same sits.
Once filled with laughter and friends mugging tgt during the Os.
Even if only the both of us are studying.
Missed those faces..
If it was the past, telling me to study alone at mac is a big NoNO.
Now.. heck care la.
Coming back alone.
Studying alone.
Because all my friends in TP simply live so far from woodlands.
Specially thank my nano for accompanying me.
i can forget to being my wallet, my handphone or even my bag.
But nt my mp3.
Keeping myself as busy as i could, mayb its a good thing?
It helps to divert ur attention.
Oh ya, just took some pics of my rabbit.
Its such a joy to see it hopping around or sleeping beside u.
Rabbit is so taMe, just pet it .
and for less than 1 min, it will fall asleep.
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9:30:00 PM comments
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May 28, 2006
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" Theres a shortage of $115.45, i have asked andrick to check the whole thing".
Its $115.45, nt $15.45. kill me..
" if theres no still no error, den u and ** have to split up the cost."
I was the cashier 2 on friday, it was totally full house with a lot stretch of people queing outside.
new system and
a 'always changing system'
+ a frigging long queue of people waiting to pay their bills.
Stacks of Order chits kept coming in to hold bills
People kept coming forward to pay
Not even enough time to settle the crowds
Yet have to complete holding the bills and putting back to the customers' table
staple all the receipts nicely after each bill is settled.
A lot of errors occur
Some people did nt pay up and went off when the bill is hold in the cashier,
and the next people came in to settle down in the same table number.
The whole cashier system is messed up
Thou wanyue came helping me a lot of times,
when i needed a breathe of air, she would take over me..
but both of us are really frigging stress
I am no God.
For once, i would rather be in the kitchen.
The time has came to closing,
and this shocking news came
All the service crews left at b4 11pm, at about 10 plus after they completed their work..
Left the cashier 2 , which is me and the management and rudy too.
We stayed till near to 1am
but still.. nothing is solved, the visa amount doesnt telly with the amount in the cashier.
" i think u beta go home 1st, we would let u know wad happen again"
i'm so frigging stress at the point in time,
but i'm really touched that rudy helped me with the cashier closing and waited for me till so late even thou he can leave at 10 plus when everybody has left.
There isnt any train service and we took a cab home, he fork out the money first too.
I thought everything would be alright after all the checkings, but the reality just struck me when peggy message me.
So much things are happening recently, i'm prepared for the worst.
At least, money can still solve it..
But i feel i need a change of environment. |
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5:24:00 AM comments
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May 23, 2006
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i'm escaping all these while..
The time has came where i really need to face u.
Scold me
Reprimand me
If u want, just slap right to my face.
Just dont show any concern towards me,
It breaks ur heart, i really know.
Seeing ur tears,
the pain and disappointment in ur eyes,
it hurts and thrust deep into my soul.
I would rather die than to see those tears
I cant imagine that i have really hurt u that much.
The first time after 3 years, i broke down and cry in front of u too.
U're some one whom i really respect and look up to,
u're definately a good shepard that nv failes care for the sheeps.
But the problem lies with the sheep itself.
It wanted to gain so much freedom that it has gone astray without knowing
thanks for bringing it back to the place where it belongs.
Intially I thought i was right to make this decision,
I told myself to be happy
I told myself i wont regret.
I smile, i joke and i laugh
I am normal again.
I have succeeded for a moment.
But i have failed for a lifetime.
After these few years of 'training', i thought i'm strong.
I just realised i am not.
I cant even stand on to my own faith.
Gently my mind escapes into the relaxing world of pleasure
A pleasure that will take my mind
Off the reality of my life,
My past life Life as I know it now
I thought i can break completely free once i have made this decision,
How i wish.
i was wrong. |
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12:52:00 AM comments
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May 20, 2006
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Dark bodies floating in darkness
no sign of light ever given
imprisoned in a world without a memory
unconscious? or am i conscious?
Trying to keep you
Trying to encourage you
Yet i'm dying
I'm such a failure
i really failed terribly
I followed your footstep.
Flesh completely torn apart.
What the hell am i doing?
So shocked yet so expected
U see no one except him.
The 4 years of friendship all of a sudden became so shallow.
U're still smiling,
u feel so relieved
PLease teach me how to do it.
The message received at 9.28pm instantly pierced thru my wound
I have commited a terrible sin.
Sorry to hurt u, i dunno wad am i doing.
Truly I know i have disappoint u.
In mind, there are more than a billion words
But not even a word can be expressed out verbally.
It takes a lot of pain to make this decision
when the walk is so long and the bond so strong
Tears are flowing
I can't control them.
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong
I have to laugh out loud,
I wish I didn't like this
i saw my own face in the dark
and i saw my own face like a spark
my life was so dark... my mind was so dark... everything was dark |
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10:47:00 PM comments
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May 18, 2006
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All along, i tot poly life are slack slack and slack. Well, i wish.
But it isnt.
Projects and more projects which only cater for babarians, because u do not have any freaking idea how to do it.
Deadline coming nearer, its so dangerous because u do not know whether r u following the right track.
Tutorials after each lecture.
Raghh.. seriously i feel if theres a test, i will fail my module.
I think i have a serious problem recently, frequent mood swings.
Keeping silence whole day or throwing my temper without knowing.
I'm really affecting the people ard me,
This isnt myself, change!
But despite of the lethargic or the stress level, u still light up my life. |
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11:56:00 PM comments
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May 14, 2006
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After hibernating for so long,
she's back.
she has chosen to ignore the critics.
Went to Raffles town club for a free bowling today, syl's mom had a free $120 voucher!
So we had to change 2 freaking long buses to reach,
and out of boredom.... the mischief was out!
Clifford and Perry getting bored..
1 min later.
Bored.. so we played games in the bus and it was fun and mad.
We became the centre of attraction in the mini bus,
Because Screams and shouts were in the air.. =X
Finally, after the freakish long ride,
We were officially at Raffles Town club! it was near to 10pm den..
But we had to walk a big circle to reach the entrance, so this is wad happened..
Cameras OUt!
And we finally reach the entrance, the place looks like a hotel, and it was simply too gorgeous.
The whole bunch of us then went in to the bowling centre,
Arghh.. i felt so much like a barbarian.
Because the ball keep rolling to the drain!
Well, its been ages seen i last went bowling.
The Brothers are all good at it. :)
James and me .while we were waitin for our turn..
Out of embarassement, i decided to stop bowling for while.
So together with cedric kaiying syl and clifford we went to play games. Hooray!
The 'bbq chicken' game was fun, and u only need to pay 50 cents for a game!
by the way the game refers to the football game where theres a lot of stickman inside,
and u need to turn the stickman like doin bbq in order to protect ur goal and hit ppl's goal.
And later..... we played streets fighter!
Its been quite a long time since i touched these games.. but it was fun! x)
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" You should step down and take a break for a while" He is right, i feel i'm not up to it. Surprisly, a burden was lifted off.... |
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2:33:00 AM comments
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May 07, 2006
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Been away from work for so long..
Guess i forgot some of the 'structures' of the shop & got a big scratch on my hand from the sharp edge while walking past.
ok, this is alreadi stupid enough.
To think later, once again, i got another scratch by the same sharp edge.
Raghhh.. alert!
well, kyoken is back..
Dint seen him for so long, yet the bickering is still as strong as ever.
I dint want to talk much to him, but he came and irritate me.
So while he was preparing the food and i was waiting outside the window for it,
its revenge time= suan him!
Me: i realise something.. the way u smile is sOooO cute.
Him: *give a silly smile*
Me: Like Frog!
Its silly i noe..-.-
but talking to him u need to use this kind of way.
Sometimes i really get so pissed off by him, until i wun bother to talk back.
And let him blabber on to himself..duh..
Until when we were walking our way to the mrt station, i realised the other side of him.
He still has goal in his life, to aim to take his O lvl.
Supporting himself, all alone in singapore yet so indepedent.
I kinda salute him..
My week seems to be so busy, that i can hardly catch my breath.
I think i gonna put lesser sceldue, so that i would have more time for the person i ought to spend with.
Kinda guilty.. |
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12:45:00 AM comments
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May 05, 2006
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Something had prompted me that u will go...
I thought i'm thinking too much,
Its definately not a good feeling.
True enough, u told me this yesterday.
Seen your contenance, i know something is wrong and i approached u ask.
Even without u saying, i know that 'Extra commitment' had contributed a lot to your decision.
Sad to say, but ur decison will really affects me.
You said u will think about it,
I'm still running this race, still biting on the bullet.. I hope u wont give up too.
Yes time flies, 3 years has past.
Even the toughest time, as best of friends we have gone thru together.
Now, its only a small trial, hang on there..
Trying to encourage you
Trying to persuade you from not giving up..
Yet inside of me, i'm not feeling any better, not holding it that strong.
Honestly speaking, i'm weak too.
I feel like i'm as if being pulled deep down into the sea yet trying so hard to gasp for air in the opening, if i were to give up for even that 1 second, i would be drowned.
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Fear is still holding me back, its hard to shake it off when it has embrace u for so long
I feel guilty for not contributing that much.
But for your sake, i will try... |
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1:09:00 AM comments
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May 04, 2006
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Organisational Behaviour
Research on Tourism & Hospitality(RHT)
Business Computing Skills(BCS)
Introduction to Tourism & Hospitality
Projects! Poke me to death.. Since like every module comes attached with a project.. Gosh..
BCS books already cost a bomb to me. $46 and its 1 of the module i detest most. Well, not forgetting RHT.
These 2 modules are so freaking freakish bored..
Seriously i tried to listen but its reali hard..
Chatted with Joel just nw, and i found out that i'm not the only one getting so disgusted with these 2 modules.
Take a look at dis pic and u will know.. (100% drawn by Joel)
Seen the hatred? Looks gross.. err..
After sch..Out of Edmund's persuation we went to Tampines Mall together with beverly, warren and benerd.
Tampines Mall is gonna to be the next causeway point to me.. x)
And half way when we are having out dinner, beverly received a call and had to go.
Guess it is something rather urgent, hope everything is alright for her.
So pathetic us.. Left with only myself edmund, warren and Benerd.
Well.. i'm not used to be alone with many guys so i quickly finish my dinner and fly home.
I took the freaking long bus 168, and i fell asleep again..
The journey back home is always so good for sleeping and i always became unconcious,
thank God there is no one sitting beside me or i will end up lying on a stranger's shoulder!
well.. tts all for nw, gotta do my projects. =X
Some things might not be necessary to express in words, my heart talks. |
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5:09:00 AM comments
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May 02, 2006
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Projects Projects!
So sick about the module business computing skills, i'm about to bore to tears.
Computer freaks like me will become so freakish again.
Thank God i'm not in IT course, i'm just not suitable, or else u will see me making all the computers explode. x)
I guess the lecturer finds it boring too, i caught him sleeping while standing yet pretending to look at us working on the freaking IT presentation!
3yrs later if i'm in IT course..
A flip side, organisational behaviour is great.
A module that studies the behaviour of people and interpersonal skills.
And comes to a part where we learn about the skills that management should posses in order to lead the people well.
Got kinda fustrated with the management in RT lately,
seems that the most important human skill that * needs is lacking and lately, * seems to be suffering a super duper great memory loss that is drving us nuts.
* memory is * evidence, hence we always lose when we tried to argue back
Mayb i should record down everything to act as proof den * will have nothin to argue back when * memory is lacking again.
I should have controlled that fustration,
But somewhat i couldnt..
And i exploded my volcano and just shoot out my views.
" Cool seh u!" My friend said this upon hearing.
I'm digging my own grave!
Gosh..
My heart is moved, its tough holding it back.. |
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