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February 28, 2007
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Over! |
And its over...
Yes yes. my exams, my projects and all my assignments!
I still cant believe the fact that I can lie peacefully on my bed and watch the tv while shaking my legs.
For a moment, it feels a bit weird having nothing to get busy, worry about.
Its really since decades I've been enjoying myself yet having my mind wandered off from school.
The fact lies that there is never a rest..
1) Start of term: Start giving project tasks for the whole semester period to do
2) Mid semester test
3) Rush projects( tonnes)
4) Rush exams!
And oh yea.. All these round up to 6 fatty months of 1 semester. And like a marathon running and running w/o any rest.
Mid sem holidays is for rushing projs too.. until the end semester. oh well.. this is only the 1st year. I wonder what will come up more next.. Sentosa time next sem!
These past few days were so freaking madly, i only slept 1 hour yesterday.
Trying to get all the wines names to squeezed into my brain cells.
Anyways loads to catch up with this holidays!
sleep, rest, play.. tanning etc etc..
But firstly I got to get rid of this sicko nauseousness that is attacking me.
It seems to be non stop, ragh.
Yes.. and I was so happy ysd that I was feeling so much better and my puking has stopped.
Recovered..
Thats what I thought.
And today.. after my paper it was near evening time and I was feeling super hungry.
Ate my fav tom/yam and guess what..
After like 5 mins I puked practically everything out again.
Gross. Gross and gross.
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February 26, 2007
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I'm very hungry.
But the sight of food makes me wanna puke.
It sucks.
Other than tom yam maggie mee and soups, all the other food makes me lose my appetite..
POM paper is quite manageable BUT I miss out 2 MCQ questions, because I was too giddy and tired that I dint saw it!
The worst thing is I know how to do these 2 questions & they're damn easy.
AHHHH.
The nauseousness is attacking me again when I thought they have gone better yesterday.
But I'm still feeling giddy and nauseous.
Held myself from throwing up for the damn long 2 hours paper.
And after the paper.. I immediately went to throw up.
Yes.. IT irks. irks and irks.
Yesterday was worst when I crawled to Mac to study. Goal was to go AMK mac because admiralty one simply irks me. Crazy and weird people around and also a super duper high chance of meeting people I know..
And what they usually asked is.. " huh.. u alone ah? what u doing?"
Wadeva.. I dun mind being alone studying but I dread to see people I know there.
Halfway crawling to amk mac in the train, was still feeling unwell again. So i decided to stop at khatib mac to study.
But too bad when I dropped there, oh gosh the whole place is PACKED with bdae party held there.
So I left and continued my journey and crawled to amk mac.. I'm so happy i dint throw up half way there.
And happy as I can.. The place is so big with power supplies when its so big u can just go one corner to study without being seen peacefully.
Studied from 7pm to 12am and took the last train back.
between 7-9pm was hell to me, its irks to juggle between stuffing info into your head and having it throbbing hard at the same time.
9-12am became more productive..
If this continues, I will have to see a doc after my exams. ragh.
And at there ulu place.. I dint expect but still met one person I know.. Its not that bad still.
The thing is that guy was an ex ramen ten crew who worked with me before for like a few times before he quited and I couldnt remember him at all..
When he called me, I asked" do i know you?"
My memory is really bad.
The journey back alone.. And I'm so proud of myself . ;)
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February 25, 2007
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Recently I have been waking up at 12pm PM. PM PM.
That means I've slept till noon!
Slept like 10 h straight?
THIS IS SO PIG CAN.
I have been giving myself excuses to sleep till so late, because its PIG year.
wadeva....
And I woke up today, stomach quiver, nauseous and giddy.
Pop some panadol and I'm slightly better now.
Cant afford to fall sick, because tmr is exam!
Till now.. I still cant get all those wine names and regions into my head.
Even if you get them, all those names flew around in your head and you get remember all the names but your mind cant categories into groups of the regions.
So basically you have to:
1. remember the arabic long long spelling
eg. Qualitatswein bestimmter Anbaugebiete
( and its tonnes of them)
Joel told me he had to write 15times for one spelling before he got it right.
2. oh and finally u've memorised the spelling, you have to rem this names belongs to where and under which group.
ITS TORTURING CAN.
And you get mixed up even thou you get all those names correct.
For a blur freak like me, simple names of the people I cant even remember.
PLUS always forgetting where I put my stuffs..
Oh gosh.. And tell me to remember all of those is like HELLLL to me.
AHHHHHHH.
I'm bad at memory, so this module i dont do well..
For application I'm better. like POM and Econs..
For some other courses(BSG) they do take POM as well & they told me its so damn hard to memorize.
But when you've got other much difficult stuffs to memorise, just like FB fun in our course. POM became like considered an easy module as compared.
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February 23, 2007
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Wines and more wines |
I wanted to try studying on bed..
Memorizing all the difficult arabic wine names.
Boom!
Its morning.
And the next thing I realise.. I havent touch one bit and I slept like a log..
Try this:
Grapes in Champagne
. Pinot Noir
.Pinot Meunier
.Chardonay
France burgundy
Gevrey Chambertin
Chambove Musigny
Vougeot
Vosnc
Buits-st-Geo rges
Oh great.. this is only the minimal. I havent memorise all of those.
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February 22, 2007
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What a great pig new year |
Hey peeps, sorry for the lack of updates.
Because this so called holidays ( since there is no school) is filled with fun and sorrow. :(
Yes, yes it is to mug!
I just got killed by my FB fun and marketing coursework grade.
It seems hardworking to be studying in the midst of Chinese new year period but its so not.
Because simply its last minute work to squeeze finishing revision in 1 week time ( 4 papers).
And it aint full concentration and full blast because I was busily collecting my ang baos!
Went to uncle's house with all the relatives present on Sunday and my biggest uncle flew back from Australia just for this season! Its really been decades since I last saw him ever since he emigrate there.
Thou he is already like 40+ years old, he dont look the least like.
Looking so fit and shuai.
And yes.. my pig primary 2 cousin's birthday was celebrated there and hes the main highlight of that day.
  The pig and my sis.
Can You believe he is pri 2?? Because I cant! And we're so amazed by his weight--------> 55kg!
This is so absurd for a primary 2 kid, heavier than me.
 And my cousin.. Whats so amazing about Macson( e one in pink) is that he is in TP also but I like never see him once.
And yes.. to make up for my sinful days of enjoying myself too much , I went to Macdonald to study. I could concentrate like a 1000 times better outside. AMK mac is like so super nice.. and big. Combining with Mac cafe, and the whole building is called the big mac centre. (;
Compared w the one at my place, it so much better. Mine is so super small and I always always bump into sec sch people at that mac, its so paiseh..
Paulina=Mac= studying.
Thats what maybe in their mind now because I never go Mac for purely eating purpose, if I'm there, theres got to be work to do.
That explains why I'm willingly to go the extra MILE to Amk.
And lesser weird people compared to the one here too.
Day 1
And thats POM..
Day 2
Standard things to bring to Mac: Ipod, sweather, my books and my brain..
And also.. 1 thing that never fails to be on my table.
Coke light.
Happy mugging and Fri is dinner time with relatives again! |
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February 18, 2007
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Happy new year! |
..And the scars reminds me that the past are real
No ever repeating this.
New year would be happy if...
There isnt exams!
ROAR. And i hardly touched anything yet.
This is like so dead meat..
This semester modules are definitely much much more harder than last sem's.
And I dun wanna screwed up. BUT how.. When the proj grades sucks. And i really mean it sucks.
I've got to do so much better for exams to pull up my overall grades, and its like so impossible because of the lack of time! And so much so much to study.
I WANNA SHOUT AND BURN ALL MY NOTES!
Anywaes Went to dad's house just now for the so called reunion dinner i supposed.
It wasnt that happy because something happen again..
Something that light me up has gotten be..
Children!
And yes.. my lil cutie was there, as bubbly as ever.
Introducing, Li shan!
Profile: 5 years old, she bites crawls, laugh -like witch and she hugs!
All the various spastic, 'romantic' and bubbly snapshots we took!
When i said tongues out! She really do it..
 Yes, and this.. I told her to ACT sleeping. And its so damn real. haha
   And we 're that intimate. ;P
Oh and yes.. 29th of March will officially be my big 18! The thing i'm excited is not my bday, but my officially 18= driving license.
I'm determined to get it thou i noe its gonna be hard..
Dad just bought another car, which motivates me even more because if i successfully get a license, i can drive that car to school w/o sharing with my dad!
Its just kind of normal cheap Nissan car, but still i'll be very glad with it..
No more super long 168 bus for me..
It isnt that easy to pass once and for all, especially for a blur freak like me.
Perhaps a car test will make me go knocking on trees and lamps. =/
But I will try my very best to get it!
His present car now..  A new extra car that will come in handy..
 Up till here.. HAPPY CNY!
And i dun feel the least like studying. ROAR. |
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February 12, 2007
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I am such a gay, sissy and asshole in school today.
Making a big big fool out of myself in front of the class.
The more I tried, the more it is difficult to suppress.
.. And it sucks.
I swear this is the last time & I'll nv do it again..
This world never stop revolving, people's heart and mind should never stop too.
Got back 2 of my modules overall 60% coursework(mid-sem test + project) grades. Gt an A for POM(Principles of mgnt) and B+ for econs.
Its definitely better than my last sem's.
Gotta get back FB fun soon and I really dont feel like facing it.
Got my TAS card today ( tourism academy of sentosa) . Ready for next semester.
 It adds on to my IMF card, all thanks to TP. (: |
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February 11, 2007
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Marc Chagall |
I dont know why am I doing this when I have decided to give up Arts Appreciation and take another CDS to replace it. I dont want to get a C for my overall grade, so i rather take another once which is easier to score.
Task next week: Prepare a presentation of an artist with history, and all the various arts he had done. comment on the techniques used in the art, like motion movement, group etc.. And what is the feeling that evoked when u see this particular art.
Grades judges solely on presentation. Memorize to present and notes not allowed!
And I go drop dead.. Here I am researching on Marc Chagall, trying to figure out what is he trying to draw and convey a message. For an art idiot like me...
 Can u see what is this? I try and figure out.. And heres my conclusion, Chagall living in Paris in which the picture is depicted but he missed his home as he looked through the window of Paris, which represents love of freedom. And the Eiffel tower representing freedom up in the sky. He having 2 sided of the face as he is in the future yet reminiscing the past.
His wife died later and a lot of arts he drew represents the love of he and his wife .
Candles representing the life of Jews, being his and his wife. The deep love that both of them had once shared as they walked through the journey together once again. With the horse representing freedom. uh my point of view anyways..
okok.. these are just 2 pieces. And more.. Commenting on the techniques of the art also. But somehow, I kinda admire the works by Marc Chagall, I really can feel the love he had for his wife.
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Oh yes and b4 i fogot, on fri.. Went to clark Quay with some of the class peeps and had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market Restaurant. Somewhat like FIsh and CO. Most of their projects had ended and they wanted to relax themselves. But not mine! I still have 2 other CDS to handle..
And naturally after projs, the slack and relax mode came BUT at the same time u have to threw away this thinking. Because exams is just around the corner.
They definitely are some fun peeps to hang out with. (;
 TRYING to act like couple.. Qingyun and Benard.
 
The delicious platter!
 And introducing shane! the curly hairy guy. He claims that he is hot.
Our food. (; The platter I shared with Bev.
And went to do some shopping.. This is the beloved result of Shane's work.
 And we sat down near the river and have all sorts of talks.. And i mean ALL..
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And recently I really understand what pJ had described in her blog.
In your stomach, u feel like eating a whole cow feeling so hungry as ever.
And when U finally take that bite, you feel like puking it all out, so full like hell.
It irks. RAGH.
Went to Toa Payoh Yesterday and thanks ANYH for his accompany and letting me to vent my anger and stress on. And the Pastamania there was so hidden in a corner! Finally I insisted that I saw one there but he claimed that there isnt any Pastamania here. And so I proved him wrong!
The so ulu corner.. And cosy cosy place.
Anyways had a mini test on Fri on FB fun. I think i gonna die soon because of this module!!!!!
I dont know how to score well for this seriouly.. Was looking through some of the notes..( not my handwriting btw)
 
And this is like only 1% of the work to memorize. With all those unknown French names.
ROAR.
Today was a scary one, I nearly got knocked down by a car. It was so close.. so close.. Just 2 steps more and I'll be landing in hospital now. For a moment, I was stunned.
And I'm treasuring life more.. Sounds funny but true, it feels really scary to be so near death.
Recent pic taken with QY.. As the winds blows..
 And up till here, thats all! Valentine is just another study day, nothing less nothing more.. Enough of candies and dreams, time to get some really BIG dreams.
You're the one big mistake I've made. A mistake which I've never regretted.
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February 08, 2007
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Thursday always has the longest break and I really hate it.
Because i'll be stuck at the lib alone where my other friends had went 4 their earlier tutorial.
Thanks to 1 of my CDS friend for accompanying, if not i would have rot till i die for 3hours.
Yea.. needless to say, its the library.
Finish psychology project and interview role play today, next week will be psycho presentation as well as arts.
And its so near exam time! the projects still nv ending!
Everything is so tight, so tight.
Had a talk with bev and Qy and we realise that all our class people are all under the 'bersak' mentality by TP Torture when hoppin ard blog in our course.
Everybody would SURE mentioned how tired and stress they were.
Being in tourism industry, e school expect us to SPECIALISE in EVERYTHING.
And i mean everything until we were all so worn and tired out.
In terms of computer skills, creating a professional website just like an IT course.
Food and fundamental, creating 108 dishes in menu style with project even more difficult than the culinary course which specialize only on food!.
Marketing project with e same exact project as the Marketing course which only specialize in marketing.
with 2 other CDS(extra subjects) to handle, just like any modules with tutorials & projects.
Past few weeks have been hell to me, until I nearly broke down.
Plus the 3 hour travellin everyday makes me go dizzy and haggard.
I'm just trying to adapt, adapt and take in everything.
It doesnt matter anymore.
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February 05, 2007
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Goodbye Fb Fun! |
This beloved proj contains our tears, sweat and blood..
I'm sprouting nonsense.. Because I'm so extremely elated that its over.
The past 3 days have been hellish for me.
Basically fri i catch one 4 h slp, sat 3 hour and sun 1 hour b4 going to schoo on monl.
Bev was supposed to stay only for one day and will go back on sun but she stayed for another nite instead because we really cant finish it..
We are really discipline i must say, dint on the tv at all through out the 3 days.
Keep sitting there at the computer for hours and hours, taking turns to take a short nap so we wont find ourself sleeping 8hours straight.
Oh yea, a 148 pages report in 2 nights.
Marvellous yea? we start from scratch.
Finding the resources all over again.
No time to eat, no time to sleep, no time to talk.
My room has become a rubbish chute with stacks of papers and books lying around.
And each of us broke down during e 2 nights, being in such a foul mood that we wish that we can chop people.
Yells, cries and wadeva insane things we do.. and also laugh.
Now I realise that u can actually laugh when ur stress level is at the ultimate peak level, & i did that.
Basically during these 3 days, these sentences keep repeating itself.
" AHHH.. I wan to die already"
" I want to sleep! *scream*"
" I got no time already!"
And during the 3rd day which is todae morning, thje deadline. I caught 1 hour of sleep and went straight to school.
both of us look like 2 crazy women walking. Where we were hunching our back to walk, and having like some sort of migrant headache having prob to walk straight.
And the thing is that.. WE STLL HAVEN FINISH by then.
But this proj really makes us learn a lot of general knowledge and what is Modern Australia all about. Also during the worst time being nobody around 2 encourage yet able to have an accompany of a friend aint such a bad thing after all. |
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February 04, 2007
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This is so crazy or maybe fanatical?
Bev is staying at my house now, and look at the time that i'm blogging now.. 6.32am.
Chionging for FB fundamental proj together.
So duper tired for burning midnight oil yesterday for ysd morning 9am psychology exam.
Oh yea. and for a moment, i was imaging that i can go straight home to slp after doing that paper and feeling so elated.
And reality draws in, I have to do my Fb fun proj!
argh.. so after psycho paper immediately we chiong in com lab until 4.45pm when the lab closes at the actual time cause its a saturday.
And.. we left so much to do so we went library hopping again seeking for more resources and we were only back to my place at 8.30pm.
GREAT. slept at 2am on fri , woke up at 6 am on sat to take psycho exam and immediately all e way chiong till 1am on sun. Catch a 3hour slp and chiong till now at 6.32am.
chiong tgt and bev broke down again..
So its sunday now! Seems like i lost control of time. i cant believe time passes so duper superb fast- when doing proj.
Dear readers, do not give up on reading thou its boring u..
Because all I face now are all projs and theres really nth to write except 4 projs, tests and exams, i'll be back soon.. (; |
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February 02, 2007
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Insanity. |
For one moment I thought i might just die on the spot when my tutor tell us that our grp fb fun proj is all wrong.
Instant death and i'm really shouting like some idiot.
DEAD LINE IS MON. ahhh.
& this 1 mth proj we have to redo everything again in 3 days time.
Redo is actually ok if u have all the resources, but we do not have.
A sense of helplessness.
I nearly wanted to cry.
Hour and hours of research, over 100 dishes.
And all were wrong.
And tmr is my dear psychology exam.
Little did i noe that poly life can drive me berserk.
Bev broke down todae because of the stress level in school.. And this happens before the Fb fun proj is announced all wrong.
SO after the announcement of the bad news, its even worse even for all of us.
With the family chaos striking on me the same time, i begin to wonder will i die halfway when i'm studying.
When i tot FB fun was the easiest module with all those animals, veg and fruits but they definitely prove me wrong.
topics on wines are extremely difficult, its practically like attending French lessons, with all those foreign words filling up the whole page of your notes.
Was studying on psycho notes and the symptoms of borderline personality disorder came across while reading.
For once, i thought i'm sick in the mind.
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February 01, 2007
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Sometimes I just wish to daze at the wall, without doing anything.
I love my room, its the place where I spend 99% of my time in the house.
1% to go to the loo and fridge.
I'm glad that my own defense mechanism is working, portraying the should-be- myself in school.
Loggerheads, everybody became mute all of a sudden.
Each living to their own..
2007 isnt a gd one, certainly.
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